Friday, 17 July 2015

Lonely Ever After

You're just standing there,
alone on the street waiting.
Acting like nobody really cares,
and tired of the games you were playing.
It's been years since we've spoken,
and I start to hear the words that left me broken.
I don't know how to feel right now,
should I approach or wait for the moment?

I'm across the street but you haven't noticed,
just like when we were supposedly together.
You said you were in love but I wasn't noticed,
how did I ever think that we would last forever?
I tried, I cried, I sighed and gave you it all,
and I said the same when I gave you a call.
It never phased you like when you didn't text,
and you just left me on my knees to crawl.

After giving you what my heart could give,
after thinking it was your idea of a heavenly bliss,
you detested me for loving you
and walked away with another guy,
I destroyed my doubts so I could love trusting you.

You left me without even a word,
casually in the arms of that guy.
I made you my entire world,
and you just left out of my sight.
Wasn't my heart enough for you,
Was my love too rough for you?
I did everything I possibly could,
but all it was it seems was lust to you.

Today I see you after so many years too soon,
 on the street with that hopeless look of misery.
Do you regret walking away from your truth,
and mourn on the days that've become history?
You're just standing there in the pouring rain,
in that same jacket;your hands in your pocket.
and as you take your hands out I feel pain,
you're crying over my memento; that locket.

The one I gave you when I said I loved you,
and there wasn't anyone above you.
Your tears of regret are obvious through the rain,
and I can even feel the very same hurtful pain.
You look across and you see me,
and I can tell your heart is broken.
Wishing you never decided to leave me,
you're struggling to come across,
wondering if my heart is still open.

And as you approach, a woman links my arms,
and I walk away staring back at you from afar.
I had found a soul that appreciated my worth,
and truly understood the magic behind my words
And you break down onto your knees crying,
the way I did when you left after I kept trying.
You've finally realised how I felt that day,
and today you wish now that you were dying.

Tuesday, 7 July 2015

A Love To Forget

I have a thousand words hidden away,
locked away in a feeble struggling heart.
I seem to love you a little more every day,
and it forces away from me the troubling dark.

Surely God had spent a little more time on you,
creating the perfection that you have become.
The one that steals my heart the way you do,
and the melodies we hear that the angels sung.

Indulging in dictionaries trying to find a word,
but yet none do justice to describing you.
Nor can my love even be measured in this world,
and it is beyond the realm of many truths.

Your image is carved on the door of my mind,
and my heart races glaring at it's elegance.
My poetic rhythm seems so lovingly blind,
it is you that captivates me in all relevance.

Your eyes entrap me in it's ultimate capture,
I drown in it's majesty perhaps falling in love.
Your heart is surely side by side with mind,
and my soul you have raptured,
it is only for you that yearning is in my eyes.

Dear beloved,
Perhaps this is a love I could not tell,
And maybe I deserve to be in the depths of hell.
So I shall with hold this truth from you,
and allow someone else to take your heart 
Maybe this just isn't my truth,
you deserve to be amongst the stars.

So you shall never know,
the magic I once nurtured,
and today I shall go,
knowing that I couldn't hurt her.

Maybe I shall forever shed tears,
filled with pain of eternal regret.
Asking myself why I had feared,
to confess my love for whom I fell

But you deserve better and I'm not the best,
Your beauty is undeniable by even the heavens
and that love lives in my every breath,
you were surely my life's blessings.

but maybe we are not fate or destiny,
and I'm to fade away to unknown memories.
I'll walk away knowing that it wasn't meant to be,
and the dream of your love wasn't meant for me.