Monday, 29 June 2015

You destroyed me

I just started building my heart again,
taking in each passing day as it flies.
Glue-ing together the pieces I lost with pain,
and that sparkle I once had in my eyes.
You came to me as a wonderful mystery,
rejuvenating the rhythm of my dead heart.
I was afraid at first because of my history,
but then you turned out to be a star.
You brightened my life the way you smiled,
and the way you cared was amazing.
Never found love in a very long while,
it was a feeling like a fire that started blazing.
I fell in love with you unaware of your truth,
never expecting that you'd be the same.
And suddenly the skies stopped being blue,
and my heart was filled with nothing but pain.
Shattered, broken, torn and ripped apart,
contradictory to the promise that you made.
I had just rebuilt that once broken heart,
and you turned out to be just another fake.
My heart is bleeding the pain that you've caused,
my eyes leak the screams that remain unheard.
I can't ever possibly trust you anymore,
A pain indescribable by any of my words.
You've destroyed everything.
I've now lost my will.
I wanted to be so many things,
now I want to be killed.
I don't want to live.
I have nothing left to give.
I'm now bereft of emotion,
just like a dried up ocean.
No more sound of the sea,
And in you
I don't know what I had seen.
And now..

You've destroyed me.




Wednesday, 24 June 2015

Loved and Lost

It's raining,
and I'm drowning.
Just soaking it all up,
with not a care in the world 
if somebody found me.
Just staring at the sky,
the dark stormy clouds.
Feeling the rain on my skin,
watching the lightning,
and hearing it's sound.
The wind when it screeches,
passing my skin as it flies.
The cold that meets us,
and freezes the tears we cry.
Suddenly it's hit me,
It's not rain; it's my tears.
Knowing that you regret
that you ever kissed me,
and spent any time with me,
and I question still,
If you ever once missed me.
Because I miss you,
and it's become an issue.
Nothing can dry away my tears,
no amounts of wipes and tissues.
Why did you let me kiss you,
or hold you when I was with you?
I miss that feeling,
but you broke me in two.
And you let me continue bleeding,
and ran away from the truth.
You left me alone with my tears,
and never thought once 
whether I was still breathing...
I gave you it all,
and I was always there
after a minute of your call.
I had always cared,
but you still let me fall.
I mean nothing.
I was nothing.
You broke my heart,
it was just your toy.
I was just another boy,
to play with until
you found your shining star.
So you let me fall and break,
cause you had just found,
a better looking guy and mate,
and felt so boastful and proud.
but when he broke your heart,
and when he had cheated,
you remembered who you are,
who you were when 
I was the reason you had feelings.
You realised your mistake,
and hoped that I was still there.
In the place you left me to break,
praying that I still cared.
But I'm not there,
I can no longer care,
because all that is there...

are the pieces of my broken heart.



Wednesday, 10 June 2015

Change

I can't seem to stand strong in life,
because just when it seems like I do,
someone has to take a shot in my eyes,
and try to disparage me from the truth.

I believe in the hidden morals of people,
the kindness and peace; not the evil.
That one day only nice words would be said,
But that a remains a dream ever so feeble.

A world where bullying no longer exists,
both in real life and on the internet.
A world full of serenity and peaceful bliss,
and immorality fading away like infrared.

Why can't women believe in who they are,
now they wear make up with damaged hearts.
Why can't they always be made to feel loved,
like the lights in the night; the beautiful stars.

I just wish that one day the world will change,
that we can all share life in the same place.
Standing together watching the fire blaze,
also united to watch the new rain,
dry out the old flames.

Thursday, 4 June 2015

A Shadow's Comforting Whisper

I hear the voices in my head, I fear my choices are being read.
doubts, questions and thoughts that want to escape my breath.
A silent night yet I still hear somebody talking; whispering,
it's my own conscious; my shadow will no longer rest.

The moon and it's awe would paralyse many of this world in wonder,
a disbelief that such beauty could be contained and plundered.
The sun in it's majesty during the light of day and it's zenith,
and the rainbow that appears after the voices of thunder.

Stars embedded in the blanket of darkness like lights of neon,
A light for all to adore from the city-folks to the peasants and pion.
just when my will was fading; a hope seems to always be found,
and it also seems that I will always have a hope to lean on.

I was drowning in misery; I couldn't grasp on to my life,
and I thought it was all ending when I lost my sight.
but unexpectedly and miraculously my shadow whispered,
"Never give up my friend, you are yet to open your eyes"

It felt like my own shadow had grasped my falling hand,
and lifted me to my feet in order to again take a stand.
A support unexpected and unbelievable yet so real,
It would follow me till the end of my every plan.