Sunday, 3 June 2018

Where are you today?

Years have passed but the memories are still in my mind,

like a CD of our moments being played on repeat till the end of time,

the end of life to the end of our lives, when you were mine,

but no longer and that’s become a past life, but you’re still in my eyes.

Your shadow won’t leave me, your silhouette overcasts my heart,

in light and in darkness, you became the brightest star.

I saw my whole world in the reflection of your very eyes,

hearing the most beautiful sound in the song of your laugh.

Every story ever known of romance and love between a two,

beautifully passed yet they don’t compare to me and you.

Romeo would wish he had loved Juliet more than you and I do,

but you and I knew that like all stories, it would have ended soon.

I miss you beyond words, beyond measure, beyond what feelings tell,

just missing you so shatters my heart causing icy winds in the devil’s hell

Did you know what love would be like and how dreaming felt,

did I know that I would lose you and would be screaming regret?

Cupid poisoned us with his arrows through the blood in our veins,

and yet that isn’t exactly what we call unbearable pain.

It was losing you, the grip of your hand, the touch of your love,

and suddenly I find myself wanting to drown in the rain.

My beloved, where are you today, are you happier now,

I will never again be so, for it is you I am without.

My beloved,  is it a much better life that you’ve found,

If so, maybe I can die knowing that you were at least safe and sound. 

Monday, 7 May 2018

Poetic Fellowship - A Conversation

All my life, all I have ever prayed for was a chance to smile,

but all I ever got was storms of misery and reasons to lose my mind.

A heart currently sat at the edge of the cliff, wanting to jump,

and just let it shatter on the very pinnacle of life.

My friend, I have watched you suffer for too long.

Trust when i say,

that I wish that the blood I once saw drip from your veins was mine.

I wish that the ledge that your feet dangle from,

remain sturdy and not let you fall.

Remain strong dear friend.

My shell is like a limitless reservoir that can’t ever be filled,

not with love’s embrace or affections aimed to bless with bliss.

It’s the very race of life that caused my heart find the edge,

It’s just a choice now, do I want death? Do I want to be killed?

Allow me to fill your reservoir, sweet companion.

May your allowance for love be plentiful.

If someone should come slay you,

I would thus become the shell you call home.

Home could be here.

Home could be with me.

My longing for a settled home has like since passed,

my soul trapped in a cage made out of unbreakable glass.

My mind waging war against all odds not allowing a chance,

life is fleeting and for my heart it travels fast.

I pray you find home in the beautiful things.

Find home in the way the songbirds sing,

Find home in the way the waves crash on the shore,

Find home where home has not been in a long time.

Set the war to rest my friend,

For there are powers far greater than you fighting.

Let it take over you.

I’m blinded by sorrow so peace is unseen to me,

finding a home in beauty is but a dream to me.

I’ve lived 25 years but experienced more than I needed, 

thus the cruelty of life is a fiend to me,

grasping my desires in it’s shadowy claws,

now my struggling heart is leaving me...

I fear I am losing you,

Your heart seemed darkened and spirit is bleak.

Why has the world shown you horror?

If I could take the sun from the sky and place it in your heart,

Believe me dear friend I would.

For nobody of your stature should fight depression each day,

Happiness should grace your heart.

Please be strong for me.

Your words are soothing like the sounds of a harp,

as they echo the heavens and cure the disease in my heart.

Yet this grace is only temporary,

It cannot chase away the dark,

for soul is beyond repair, it’s been torn apart.

I am afraid of goodbyes,

But in my heart I know this is it.

Life did not treat you well,

and for that you will be missed.

Wherever it is you go promise me one thing,

Sing loud so I hear you through the birds.

I hope to hear you roar through the waves.

Spread your love throughout my home,

For it wouldn't have been home without you.

If the treasures spoken in legends existed,

you would be this world’s one that had remained hidden.

If there was a reason to finally smile,

It was that your companionship

found me and the devil didn’t.

You are a marvel, the true meaning of miracle,

and it’s something indescribable in syllables,

but you’re the first person that saw me,

and now suddenly, I no longer feel invisible.

What gratitude can truly show my sincerity,

you will forever be recorded in my memories,

eternally from amongst the secrets of life that were best to me.

Let us savour this moment and forever remember,

this beautiful gift of poetic fellowship.

A friendship built upon art,

And that you were. 

So abstract that only a few could truly appreciate your essence.

This world will be darker without you,

but your light shall shine throughout.

In my heart you will remain for every

And this ink will bound us together.

Outlive us even.

Perhaps this is what they call undying love.

Co written by Isabella Maria

Saturday, 21 April 2018

Catch My Tears

I’ve got my headphones in, music playing as my heart sinks,

silence except what I’m listening to as the hidden stars sing.

I used to be a soul that used to stay smiling and laughing,

but now it’s beyond the comprehension of what far is.

It’s painful when you realise no one cares the way you do,

invested time becomes wasted time when you learn the truth.

Effort becomes regret as I spend my life away on YouTube,

watching relatable videos as they become a coping tool.

My poetry is dying, the ink in my pen is fading,

my sorrow is extinguishing the flame that was blazing.

It’s a downpour of sorrow and my heart has no shelter when it’s raining,

I’m a soul breathing it’s last few, will somebody save me?

No. My thoughts echo so loud it becomes clear to hear,

no one is there and everything is as I always feared.

A heart in solitude is the worst pain, catch my falling tears,

no, they won’t be caught because nobody is here. 

Tuesday, 6 March 2018

My Heart’s Mourning

I’m paralysed by the memories of yesterday, of the days that were my better days. Those memories that carved the image of your smile, they remained but your reality was what went away. 

my heart still sheds tears, my mind is still fighting away those fears. I lost my world on that regretful day, oh my love, how I wish you were still here. Your silhouette, it’s still here. 

My love has become a legend in the heavens, the angels weep for my failure in understanding my blessings. You were the light in my life so shadowed, I only dreamed of what would be a beautiful wedding, you standing as angel in ceremonial dresses. 

It’s been 4 years since I kissed you, no day has passed where I hadn’t missed you. I still miss you and Its an issue, because I can’t live my life,  I can’t breath without you so I need to be with you. I still love you and you know it’s true.

How can this be a life without your love? This torture and torment has become too much. It’s unbearable yet the devil never thinks it’s enough, filling my mind with those painful memories of us, beautiful pictures of our love. 

Romeo now turns in his grave, his love but a story erased. Burning inside that a truer love now exists in a new time and place.

Legacies displaced, no longer an example for new loves grace, Romeo curses himself for this.

Juliet mourns in her tomb, her heart bleeding mortal wound. Romeo had not loved her this much, now she does not regret her unpredicted doom. She envies my love, unrequited yet flowers still bloom.

My cries reach the stars, they resonate through the dark, ripping through the fabric that keeps the light so far. 

It is my only wish that she will hear it, the mourning of my heart. 

Friday, 2 February 2018

Empty Streets

I’m walking down those lonely empty streets,

my mind clouded with so many heavy dreams.

My only memories of you are destroying me,

and they don’t ever seem to want to leave.

I saw the universe in the glow of your eyes,

and it was then I knew that you had to be mine.

Your beautiful face would always be sketched in my mind,

what was this feeling? was this the thing called love I despised?

I miss the touch of your hands, I can still feel the grasp,

though your heart and soul had travelled into the past.

My heart wishes every night for just one more chance,

something impossible now, ours was a love never meant to last.

I wonder how you’re doing now, how much happier you are,

I wonder where life’s taken you, has it healed your heart?

Mine’s still broken, my love, I tell my pain to the stars,

because they are the only light I have left in this dark.

I could never forget the beautiful way you made me feel,

whenever I was with you, I thought it couldn’t be real.

It had to be a dream, my projected desires revealed,

how was I to to know it would end with both of us needing to heal?

Can I tell you something, my darling, truthfully I still wait,

It’s crazy, I know, I’m just hopeful of destiny & fate.

I wish in my heart that you’d come back to me and say,

“I miss you as much as you miss me”

cause that would be great.

cause it seems that wherever you went, my heart had followed,

it couldn’t sit there, it couldn’t wait until tomorrow.

It was losing it’s soul, it started becoming so hollow,

and before it left, it told me..”if it’s love, then I have to follow”